The Good Life

Wow. I start back in the OR in a little over 1 week!  I'm excited, but it's a bittersweet move.  I will really miss all of the amazing people that I have been able to work with in L&D for the last year.  They are some great people-I laugh every day.  It makes the 12 hour shifts not too bad...  I will miss interacting with patients (some of them).  I will still be able to get a little face-to-face time with patients, just not the same patient for 12 hours! I have decided that my impatience has edged it's way into my work.  I am not a "give a pill and wait to see what happens" kind of person.  I am the "cut them open, fix it up and make it right" kind of person.  I believe that the OR is in my blood, and for right now-it's where I belong.  I'm not sure where it will lead me. It may be a jumping off point for other great and amazing things, or I may stay there for many years to come.  That's the great thing about nursing-you never know where you will end up!

Speaking of nursing.... I am supposed to be finishing up most of my classes for my BSN right now.  I know, I've mentioned before what a slacker I am, but I have 4 days off and I plan to lock myself in my office and write, write, write!!  I am finished with 2 classes-I have 3 more to go and 2 final exams and then I'm done.  Technically I have until September 1 to finish, but they set a completion date about 6 weeks before then so that we have time to get assignments back and revise anything that needs a revision.  I REALLY want to finish before I start in the OR, just so I can enjoy my evenings and not have to come home every day worrying about assignments.

I have officially been a nurse for 1 year!  I passed my NCLEX exam on July 3 last year. What a roller coaster of a year-personally and professionally.  July 3 was also supposed to be my tentative wedding date.  I thought a lot about that this past week.  It just wasn't right.  I think I was upset at first, but now I can clearly see that I was more excited about the change that would take place in my life than the person that would make that change happen.  Does that make sense?  It has nothing to do with him, he just wasn't the right one for me.  I know now that staying where I am is the right decision for me.  My mom and I were discussing this a few weeks ago and I told her that I had known in the back of my mind that it wasn't right.  She said that when I first got back there to visit, I told her that I could see myself living there and that I felt comfortable.  She's right-I did envision myself there, but not with him.  It was the environment that I was excited about.  I just got caught up in the adventure.  I need to be more careful in the future and not be so impatient (which is something I have been working on my entire life).  My decision to get married was more of a practical decision.  In my mind I was thinking more about having the life I wanted instead of paying attention to my true feelings.  I think any future guys will have to wait a LONG time before I make any commitments.  I made myself that promise-that I wouldn't jump into anything too quickly.  I really am happy where I am and doing what I'm doing.  I love my life and don't really want it to change.  I am just excited to see what is around every corner!  I am excited to be out of school-it has been a long six years.  I want to start to enjoy my life with friends (new and old) and experience some things that I have been unable to do because I have been tied down by school.  Life is good, my friends.  Life is good.  :)